I laughed at the part when you wrote if you need me pick up the phone, God I'm sure would have hell of a time with all the messages he would get on his phone either by texting or voicemails saying "where the heck are you"
Favorite stanzas are below I found them beautiful and this should be in life under motivation if they have that option.
"I am putting you through tests
Because you are the strongest one of all
You are the leader
That has to learn to fall.
"But making you fall
Is not the goal I have in mind
I want you to pick yourself back up
and leave everything else behind.
"You are my soldier
You shall receive the greatest of gifts
Fly higher than any man
And soar far above cliffs.
"So dear, please understand
I am doing this for your own protection
Prove to the world you are great
And show them your redemption."
Alot of what you have written here reigns true it does feel like we must be put through test after test and god knows our hearts but he must test us to see who will follow his will I don't believe nesessarily that we
should think of ourselves I believe he is looking to find those who are selfless and help others even if we fall again and again those who are true will always help others those who struggle know others struggle those
who are sad want to comfort others those who care will show they care and those who don't are of the world we give to others selflessly we ask for nothing in return I believe it touches our souls to help in any way we can.. I think I lost my heart today the kindness screamed at me for being mean, there was a lady
shaking homeless now I saw grief I saw pain she needed a fix I gave one look at her and knew even saying I ain't giving you no money so you can do drugs that would of never crossed my mind but it did and I drove away, then the spirit of God came over me he tolde to go back and buy her some food then and pray with her , well I did go back and she was not there.. I have to say, even as I thought the devil had told her to leave I was comming back because I believed truly God wanted me to pray for her with her and buy her some food.. These are the words that hit my heart before going back.. Jesus never saw the person he saw their hearts and the pain within their struggles don't look on the outside.. Then I thought
about if a demon would enter me and the Holy spirit comforted me and I knew he would be with me.. I looked for her and the man that was asking to help his church said she's right behind me we both looked for she and he said scratching his head she was right there now I wonder was it a test an angel this I will always wonder because she was no where in site , just disappeared.. Beautiful poem..