Ill pretend for you

I want to spend my life with you but I know that I probably can't because I also know you probably don't feel the same way about me. I want you in my life though, so I will continue to pretend that I don't love you. I'll pretend that when you look in my eyes I don't feel my heart skip a beat, I will pretend that everything you ever said to me that me giggle was pure bullshit, I will pretend that any girl you do love in the future is my favorite person in the world, simply so that she won't keep you away from me. I will fake not loving you for the rest of my life if it means that you will stay close enough to me so that I can love you from a distance; because even though it causes me pain not to be true to my feelings, it would kill me to not feel them.