Internal thoughts

I'm unsure where to go from here
Nothing seems clear
I wish it to demise
Return blue eyes

The photos on the wall reveal
Love, happiness, trust
I bond I hoped to stay
And I still hold out hope

I write a letter every day
Like some Noah and ally bull
Does that make me crazy?
I wish I knew how to tell

When does enough become enough
When do I know when to stop
I can move forward
But when do I move on?

Do I move on?
I just want someone to answer
Have you moved on?
Am I holding on to something lost?

Am I being pathetic?
Wishing for something unattainable
I don't even know if you're angry
Were you mad?

My thoughts are not kind
They eat at me.
I cry sometimes
But I'm trying to be strong.

Words can't explain the longing I feel
Do you feel it too?
Or have you moved on?
Am I just a memory now.

You squeezed my hand hard.
I don't know if it was intentional.
Or If you even remember
But I hold onto that feeling.

God I just wish I could hold you
And hug you
And tell you everything will be ok
One day