Today, I had a revelation,
realizing silence will embrace me if
I carve lines onto my forearms,
chains not of metal but of
loathing.
It doesn't ever hurt to ask,
so I fired words before the altar
became our focus and bells were
reverently rung.
I didn't speak clearly enough
though you heard, you didn't understand
I needed perspective with you
by my side.
Today, I willingly led the path outside,
aware that God would plan another time
when we both wouldn't feel constrained.
And I witnessed the full sunset, for the
first time in months.
Today was not the easiest nor
did I define myself without my choices,
but somewhere, someone inspired the
bitterness out of me
and no longer did I swallow emptiness
and lick dry lips to a dry life.
I sang from my heart today,
a hundred songs that cleared the skies
and reaffirmed the purity of blue.
For once, I have a destination...
and it's a home called Heaven.
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Written 8/15/14 @ 8:11 PM while listening to "Don't you worry, child" by Swedish House Mafia on repeat.
