Desperation

by sammiej   Dec 8, 2014


I look in the mirror and start to cringe.
It's myself I hate as I pick up my syringe.
I want to cry but I no longer feel.
My own reflection just doesn't seem real.
I try to remember who I used to be.
But I've become just a fading memory.
I never thought it would have this control.
I gave it my mind, my heart, and my soul.
I have given into the demons inside.
Trapped in a needle I have screamed and cried.
Wondering if there's anyone left who cares.
That I'm shouting, dying inside these nightmares.
I wanna wake up, pretend it was all just a dream.
Instead it's reality and all that it seemed.
So I'm all alone in this prison I built.
Behind my bars I watch my world wither and wilt.
I pray to a god in which I do not believe.
Knowing it's my devils I long to deceive.
I've made my heart so cold and numb.
So to my poison I surrender and succumb.
I apologize to those who say they care.
But my burdens are not yours to bare.
Yet I laid them on you and walked away.
Now there's nowhere to go and nothing left to say.
But remember me not for who I was in the end.
Remember me when I was a mother and a friend... by Sammie 2014

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  • 9 years ago

    by shadow

    Love the imagery in this. Nice flow as well. Great job.

  • 9 years ago

    by Beautiful Tragedy

    This is very well written. but i want to say a few things: you are not alone, if you need anyone i'm here. I like the way this poem shows the vision of how you see yourself from the inside, and not many people can manage that, so good job. I've been writing for years and sometimes i still struggle with trying to capture the image. It's not much, but i still do. anyway, good job writing this.

    • 9 years ago

      by sammiej

      Thank you very much. Yes I have incredible insight and don't mind sharing my Honesty.

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