I'm gonna start this by saying thank you,Â because I feel that I just can't say it enough.
You've continued to stick by me and you've been there for me when no one else was.
Even after everyone lost all hope in me, still you never gave up.
You give me something that I've never had.
Unconditional love with no expectations or strings attached.
It means so much to me that you care and actually give me the time of day.
Even though you may not fully understand what I'm going through, you always listen to what I have to say.
Knowing that you truly care and that you're here by my side,
Has been the reason I continue to hold on and why I'm still alive.
See, you give me hope and a reason.
You make me want to be a better person, and give me something to believe in.
I feel safe and trust talking to you,
I know I can tell you anything.
And I promise to always tell you the truth, no matter how messed up it is.
It breaks my heart to know that you worry if tonight will be the night that my addiction finally kills me.
And for that, I sincerely apologize.
But honestly, at this point, shooting up is the only thing that numbs this horrible pain that I constantly feel inside.
I feel in my heart, and trust and believe,
That you're the angel God has sent to watch over me.
I've got abandonment issues so I'm still afraid your gonna walk out of my life, but I pray to god everyday that you don't go.
Your my reason for living and I need you more than you could ever know.