Look at me
These lines traced along my skin
How saddening it must be
To see your daughter
Your girlfriend
Your sister
Destroy the only thing she has
Herself.
You see my scars
But do you really understand?
This one was when he left
That one from being rejected again.
Some criss-cross
Others are parallel
They range from papercuts
To gaping wounds.
Look into my eyes
Do you honestly believe
That I wanted this?
What person
In any mindset
Would want to rely on this
In order to get through the day.
10 years ago
I could not have imagined
I'd do this to myself
& 10 years from now
I will not be able to comprehend
Why I did this.
You notice how I shudder
Whenever someone comments
"What happened?"
I'm not proud
I'm not seeking attention
I simply want to live
As normal as I can.
A bad grade on a test
Relapse
A fight with a friend
Relapse
Wallowing in the anguish of being completely alone
Relapse.
You couldn't understand
Not even if you tried
I do this because I can't feel
& ripping my skin apart
Is the only way I can.
Look at me
The bags under my eyes
From being up all night
Stuck in a vicious cycle of insomnia.
My hair isn't washed
And I had these clothes on yesterday.
It's funny how
Once everything fell apart
I stopped caring too.
My bracelets cover
The damage which accompanied
Last night.
I only wish
For some way to get out
Because this is miserable
Not a fashion statement
Or a way of life.
My entire existence
Is a desolate waste of matter
And I just want
I want to see the sun again
Someday.
Who would have thought
Happiness is so hard to reach
When you're stuck
In a never-ending nightmare.
