Really powerful write here, great flow and your words choice was spot on. So much emotional imagery here, this is a really well written piece.
11 months ago
It makes me sad when the people who gave us hope end up letting us down just as equally. I could understand having mixed feelings about this person...especially when they seemed the only person there in a time when you had noone- but, I hope you don't take this the wrong way when I say that, I AM glad that you DID have this person at the time to help you through whatever you had to go through...maybe they served their purpose in that way...
This poem has grit. It's speaks of experience off the back of painful lessons. This pain is being used, like harnessed energy and redirected as kind of protection from the past. The healing comes undone whenever they are around. The result is: regurgitated memories, and the compulsion to remind them how much damage has been caused. Why though? Perhaps to induce guilt and/or an apology? Would that help -possibly? What's needed? Compassion, empathy, honesty, anything!