I get the feeling that this is referring to something from your past that you can't seem to shake off...a bit like a winter cold perhaps. You really want to move on to the sunshine of spring but, something is still holding you back. Maybe autumn is a compromise, somewhere in between that you would feel comfortable with...like a tiny step in the right direction. I could be totally off the mark of course but, these are just my thoughts. Lovely write, as usual.
A sincere and beautiful wrote as always even through the saddest or darkest moments you write beautifully.
The winter makes us all that little bit depressive doesn't t but as soon as the sun appears the majority of our moods are lifted. I feel this is somewhat related to a past event n your life taking hold of you and you not being able to let go of it though, like many of us our guilt takes hold of us and it's hard to forgive ourselves.
Dear Andrea, I sense that this is dealing with someone very dear to you. "Full of sorrow" could mean that we have our own regrets or the other person feels truly sorry. Cracked lips is a sign of cold or dryness, often we bite them because we are frustrated. Who does not yearn sunshine after extreme cold temperatures. When our emotions are spinning we seem to feel cold at times and as the emotions start to get better we warm up. "Maybe next Sunday I embrace spring but not today" To me it sounds that today is not a good day perhaps next Sunday I will go to church. Letting go is not easy but not only we have to forgive others we have to forgive ourselves. Very emotional. Take care.