Forgiveness

I sure didn't plan on my life turning out this way. It was all part of God's plan & he wanted me to stay. With a quickness, in a blink of an eye-that one day in Oct., when I realized I could have died. While I was busy in my life-not perfect by far, just trying to make a living, barely getting by. What you almost took from me. Sad and it's a shame to have to live in such a messed up society. My life was given to me, to live as I see fit-not to be taken by some misguided misfit. You left your house that day and chose to bring a gun, with the intent to use it on someone. Well listen up, that bullet you shot at another human being, I know it wasn't meant for me, but I've carried it now for 17 long yrs., still lodged in my head, wishing at times that I'd much rather be dead. Dear Lord I ask, what did I do in my life thus far that was so wrong to deserve such an unbelievable/uncertainty of no fault of my own -path, but it wasn't even about me, now was it? It was you that was headed down the wrong path, like so many of our younger generation, without morals, without any goals, just existing in a hateful state of mind. You know it's not up to you or anyone else to take someone else"s life away, that's God's job. Do the guns make you feel like you have power, I only see a coward. Do you realize that killing another human being over money, drugs, the color of clothes we choose to wear, over territory (which isn't even yours or your rivals to begin with) is insane? Is it really worth spending the rest of your life in a prison without possible parole, or 6 ft. under. What if it was your child or family member that took a bullet and didn't make it, instead of me? Would all this foolishness and insanity stop? Instead of so much hatred, try a little kindness, love and respect one another and most of all, treat someone the way you'd like to be treated. There's so much more to life, life is too short and way to precious. Now after 17 yrs. of struggling, not only physically, also mentally, in order for me to get on with what life I have left of, I want you to know that I forgive you for shooting me. I pray for you and want to believe that you and many others on the same path have changed your evil ways and are leading honest and more productive lives. Oh yeah, just one more thing through all my trails and tribulation that stemmed from this horrible ordeal I'm a much wiser and much stronger woman...