Unsettled

Have you ever felt so tiny and insignificant that the room feels so huge compared to who you really are
have you ever felt so much of a nothing and irrelevant that words can't seem to convey that which lurks deep inside
how can this tiny self of me be contained in this insignificantly small room
and how can this tremendous soul of me lay at ease in limits
i reside in nothingness and insignificance of self existence
i cease to be when my presence is limited to those who feel me
denial creates the struggle within as i lay back and resent i feel
it creates a world of hate and murder inside
i am what i hate to be yet this is my reality
i resent the creature that lurks inside
that dwells in shadows and simply hide
in moments of rush and uncontrolled anger
it takes life and shape and feeds its hunger
i , swept by the wavy storm
lose myself and thus I'm gone
help this demon is taking over
and i don't seem to mind him pulling over
i feel at ease and want to escape
i need to be free , i need the space
creation devours and emptiness drowns like a flower