This was awesome, I loved the part about being a ballerina made of ink dancing in-between the lines. I also kinda figured this would add a double punch with the wicked clever way you tied in razor blades and cutting. This was deeply romantic.
Belle, what an amazingly written piece that put ache into my heart and tears upon my face. This hit home to me more than I cared to admit because I have been years (not cutting) but close to the edge many, many times before and I will not say that I understand because we all have our own personal trials and tribulations (so to speak) that make us depressed and the person we are today. All I will say is try and stay strong and again, if you need a chat I'm here.
Reading through this poem and about your 'secret toy' I was thinking, ah yes I know what this is. When I found out it was a razor blade I realised this poem was as powerful as the bloody pain it depicts. As for my guess, I snapped my Bic biro with the shock of the blade.
Well done, a personal write that will touch a cord in many.Stay strong.