Reading through this poem and about your 'secret toy' I was thinking, ah yes I know what this is. When I found out it was a razor blade I realised this poem was as powerful as the bloody pain it depicts. As for my guess, I snapped my Bic biro with the shock of the blade.
Well done, a personal write that will touch a cord in many.Stay strong.
Belle, what an amazingly written piece that put ache into my heart and tears upon my face. This hit home to me more than I cared to admit because I have been years (not cutting) but close to the edge many, many times before and I will not say that I understand because we all have our own personal trials and tribulations (so to speak) that make us depressed and the person we are today. All I will say is try and stay strong and again, if you need a chat I'm here.
This was awesome, I loved the part about being a ballerina made of ink dancing in-between the lines. I also kinda figured this would add a double punch with the wicked clever way you tied in razor blades and cutting. This was deeply romantic.