So it seemed,
that it was cool,
for everyone to be in a relationship but me.
So I took matters into my own hands
and...ended up with him.
Him, who displayed the characteristics of a
cheater, a liar, an abuser and a thief.
So why was I surprised when he broke into my heart?
I called 911, but I was cardiac-arrested for
aiding and abetting,
'cause it was me who let him in,
claiming we were "just friends."
It was already decided for me by the first date that
even if he wasn't,
I was gonna make him "The One."
You know...I was tired of being alone,
and I simply made up in my mind,
that it was about that time
so I decided to drag him along for the ride,
'cause I was always the bridesmaid and never the bride.
A virgin in the physical,
but mentally just a grown woman on the corner in heat,
who was tired of the wait,
so I was gonna make him "The One."
he had a...form of godliness,
but not much.
But, but, hey, hey, I can change him,
so I'll take him, I mean he's close...
Ready to sell my aorta for a quarter,
not knowing the value of its use to me.
Arteries so clogged with my will,
it blocked His will from flowing through me.
So, I thank Christ that His blood pressure gave this heart an attack,
that flatlined my obscured vision, put me flat on my back.
Through my ignorance, He saw,
so through my sternum He sawed and cracked open my chest
to transplant Psalms 51:10,
a new heart
and a renewed right spirit within.
So now, I fully understand,
better yet, I thoroughly comprehend,
how much I need to wait
the bad thing is
that I knew he wasn't you from the beginning.
'cause in the beginning was the Word
and he didn't even sound or shine like Your Son
Out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks,
and all he could whisper was
which meant nothing!
he couldn't even have prayed when I needed him to,
asking him to fast would be absurd,
so, forget about being cleansed and washed with water through the Word.
But I know you,
you are already praying for me.
Even never having met me,
let me assure you,
I will wait
I will no longer date,
socialize or communicate with carbon copies of you
to appease my boredom
or to quench my thirsty desire I have for attention and short-lived compliments from "sorta kindas."
You know, he's "sorta kinda" right, but "sorta kinda" wrong?
His first name: Luke,
his last name: Warm.
I won't settle for false companionship.
I won't lay in the embrace of his arms,
attempting to find some closeness,
but never feeling so far, far apart
'cause, I just wanna be held.
'Cause all I gotta do is say,
No more "almost sessions" of
"almost coming close"
passing winks and buying drinks,
and I'm a,
I'm a flirt!
Who flirts with the ideology of
"Can you just tell me how much I can get away with & still be saved?"
I'll stay in my bed,
and write poems,
about how I will wait for You.
he won't even come close,
our fingers won't even interlock,
we won't even exchange breath,
'cause I have thoughts that I've "saved as" in a file that God has only equipped you to open.
I will no longer get weighted down,
from so-called friends and family talks,
about the concern for my biological clock
when I serve the Author of Time.
Who is not subject to time,
but I'm subject to Him.
He has the ability to stop, fast-forward, pause, or rewind at any given time.
if we could role-play,
you would be Abraham and I would be Sara,
or you can be Isaac and I can be Rebecca--a servant's answered prayer.
bone of your bone,
flesh of your flesh,
made up of your rib, Adam.
And once we meet,
like electrons, I will be bound to your nucleus,
We even speak the same math:
1 + 1 + 1 = 3,
which really equals 1 if you add Him.
We were all created in His image,
but you have the ability to reflect, project and even detect
If I were to explain what you look like,
you would have to look like a star-
a sun of the Son.
I would gain energy simply from the light that you shine on me.
I would need you in order to complete my photosynthesis.
I await your revelation, but once again from the genesis,
I will wait for you.
And I will know you
because when you speak,
I will be reminded of Solomon's wisdom,
your ability to lead will remind me of Moses,
your faith will remind me of Abraham,
your confidence in God's Word will remind me of Daniel,
your inspiration will remind me of Paul,
your heart for God will remind me of David,
your attention to detail will remind me of Noah,
your integrity will remind me of Joseph,
and your ability to abandon your own will, will remind me of the disciples,
but your ability to love selflessly and unconditionally will remind me of Christ.
But I won't need to identify you by any special Matthews
or any special marks,
'cause His Word will be tatted all over your heart.
And you will know me,
and you will find me,
the boldness of Esther
meets the warm closeness of Ruth,
where the hospitality of Lydia
is aligned with the submission of Mary,
which is engulfed in the tears of a praying Hanna.
I will be the one,
drenched in Proverbs 31,
waiting for you.
But to my Father,
my Father who has known me before I was birthed into this earth,
only if You should see fit.
I desire Your will above mine.
So even if you call me to a life of singleness,
my heart is content with You--the One who was sent.
You are the greatest love story ever told,
the greatest love ever known.
You are forever my judge and I'm forever Your witness,
and I pray that I'm always found on a mission about my Father's business.
I will always be Yours,
and I will always wait for You, Lord.
More than the watchmen wait for the morning,
more than the watchmen wait for the morning,
I will wait.
Seriously...just...WOW! I don't even know where to begin with expressing how amazing this poem is. I've read it at least a handful of times and I still can't find the right words...but...
This is just down right phenomenal, girl.
Everything about it.
From the layout to the metaphors to the growth we witness you experiencing as we read from the beginning to the end. Plus I really love the free flow of it...almost like a poetic rap...I found myself tapping my feet while I read it and reading the "aye" part with some attitude. I was nodding along with every line and hanging on to every word...and several times found myself saying "you go girl" lol.
I want to list out all of my favorite lines but I would just end up copying and pasting the majority of your poem into this comment and it would be too long.
All I can say is...once again...WOW. This is amazing work and I feel like you were really in your element as you wrote this.
Awesome awesome awesome!
Write more poems and post them, okay? You are very talented! :)
The ending to this is beautiful..
the poem as a whole is quite something else I'll admit;
But the ending was beautifully written.
I love the way you intertwined so many things in here with your words..
great write. You have amazing talent.