Anxiety of the abused

by Kasie   Jan 2, 2017


This gut wrenching loneliness that I feel within,
There is an emptiness inside that's bound to win.
I can't control my emotions any more,
At times I just want to curl into a ball on the floor.

The anxiety and loneliness is slowly killing me inside,
There is nowhere to run, there is nowhere to hide.
These thoughts are screaming inside my head,
As I lay and try to fall to sleep in my bed.

You're ugly, you're fat, you're worthless,
Those words ring in my head as I'm trying to catch my breath.
My heart is beginning to race,
As I'm trying to get my mind to a better place.

The words of a bully, who would have thought?
They could be so painful, my mind is so distraught.
Thoughts of those cruel words cut deep like glass,
I just can't manage to escape from my past.

My mind is like a prison, I can't be free,
Why can't it just stop, just leave me be!
I want to be happy and normal like the rest,
But my thoughts won't leave, they are like unwanted guests.

It has been 9 years since I left the bullies at school,
But I'm still living the nightmare of those words so cruel.
It's a never-ending cyclone of depression and anxiety,
But I will eventually be fine, I just have to be.
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Written by Kasie F

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  • 6 years ago

    by CânnâBîsh

    Girl, This I can feel for you on as i too striggle with. Every line was packed with emotional depths. Trying to find the courage to pull through another day, battling not one but 2 sets of demons everyday with everything done. Anyways, very relatable but the peive was written well. The flow was kind of shaky in my opinion but dont give up. Im here if you need to vent or just talk (: its nice to know we arent alone whether we wanna be or not

    • 6 years ago

      by Kasie

      Thank you for your kind criticism and for letting me know you are there. I know this isn't my best work and have been working on making my writing better.

  • 6 years ago

    by mossgirl19

    This is raw and rhymed well. Forget about bullies they are the insecure hehe.

    • 6 years ago

      by Kasie

      Thank you, I've learned to just smile at them. It annoys them, but they leave you alone after that.

  • 7 years ago

    by Imperfection

    Brilliant poem I surfer with depression and anxiety so I understand in some levels I know everyone isn't the same it effects ppl in different ways but we can be strong together I believe that's the only way

    • 7 years ago

      by Kasie

      Thank you, and I agree with you. I wish you all the best.

  • 7 years ago

    by Em

    Kasie, I too have been away from here for some time and recently rejoined back last year which I am glad I did as there are some wonderful people on this site. Your poem speaks volumes to me and no doubt many others.

    1/ The way you describe the depression is awesome because it make sus feel lonely, uncontrollable and just want to end everything but as I have said to many people the brave thing is sticking with it because the darkness will go even if for a day or so.

    2/ I feel bedtime is the time people with depression overthink things and we always seem to question things which (for me) results in insomnia, crying and hating myself unfortunately.

    3/ We can fight and fight with our 'demons' but sometimes (especially when trying to sleep) they seem to win us hands down. I don't have a clue what you look like etc but you're not worthless etc though I know the feeling of people saying them repeatedly and drumming them into our heads thus us thinking they are true but they aren't.

    4/ Bullies are so horrible, they have nothing better to do so they make other peoples lives worse and pick on the vulnerable and it's heart breaking to be a victim of bullying in any way. Words are the worse form of bullying or abuse as they stick like glue, unfortunately.

    5/ It's hard when we feel like we're imprisoned in our own minds and bodies because all we want to do is scream "let me out" but even if we do it doesn't work. :/ I think want should be won't here and guest should be guests. (hope you don't mind me saying)

    6/ None of us should have to suffer at the hands of bullies but many of us do, unfortunately.

    Great imagery and rhyming throughout.
    Em

    • 7 years ago

      by Kasie

      Thank you. I couldn't have said it better myself. Also, thank you for pointing out my spelling errors, I have corrected them. I am always open to criticism, that's how I get better.

  • 7 years ago

    by Mr. Darcy

    Nice to see you posting your work again.

    I have a theory that bullies are the ones who are insecure. Why else would one find enjoyment in causing sorrow for others? Misery needs company

    It sounds like you know your strengths. One of them knowing that words are just that and the truth is you can be who you want to be.

    It's a good time of year to take this inner strength and stride towards your goals.

    Best wishes for 2017.

    Michael

    • 7 years ago

      by Kasie

      Thank you for your encouraging words. Depression is never easy. Writing always helps voice my thoughts. And best wishes for 2017 to you as well.

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