Sad, yet the truth about depression, a diffulcut part of life.
I'd like to suggest something, if you don't mind...
`Intensely having self hatred from others`
^ I think here you can make it only `hatred` instead of `self hatred`; because if it's self hatred, then it won't be from others...I guess. Or you can make it something like `self hatred because of others`.
It's just my opinion.
And this is anyway a good piece, well and nicely written. I love it. :)