Hopeless

I’m not giving up I’m giving in
It’s like I’m succumbing to my original sin
I’m still trying
I’m still breathing
I’m still here
I’m just not giving all there is
I’m pushing myself
But not getting anywhere
I’m to distracted
Gone beyond repair
I try and focus
I really do
But soon I find myself giving into temptation
Every single time
I can’t stop it
I can’t change
‘I can’t drown my demons they know how to swim’
And that’s the problem
I haven’t stopped fighting against my demons
I’ve given into them
I’ve realised that they are stronger then I’ll ever be
I’m coming in second best again
Still trying to win
But with no hope of doing so
I’m not giving up I’m giving in
And I’m pushing against it
In a vain attempt to get first place
My resolve is faltering
And I’m losing ground
There’s no hope for me now