I See

I watch
Your happy little life
Your perfect little wife
The one with no voice
With secrets as deep as yours
The ones that make you crave death and silence
I never understood that fake kind of "living"
No passion
No fire
I've never been able to turn it off
"Fake it till you make it"
Never was good at that one
I always envied your indifference
The ability to bury it so deep
You almost made me believe it never existed
That pain that makes you punish everyone who loves you
Makes you hide who you really are
The one that will destroy everything
I watch you
And I see the subtleties of your demons dance in your eyes
Ripple just below the skin
I can't help but smile
Though I shouldn't
The truth of your self destruction eases the pain of my loss