I can't decide if this is a poem about lying about what you wanted to someone you love and asking if it's too late to get them back or if it's just genuinely about asking someone you hurt if things will ever be the same. Or maybe it's neither..
Could you clear that up for me please?
I fell for a girl a long time ago. She also happened to be my best friend. I tried to tell her once before but couldn't find the words. Thats when I wrote ''waking nightmare'' and ''why do you love me?'' (12 years ago)
We haven't talked in almost 10 years. She recently popped back up in my life again. I'm going through a divorce. She is engaged but having serious second thoughts. And we picked up after 10 years without missing a beat. My feelings after all this time haven't changed. She's the one that got away.
I told her how I felt. How I've always felt. And she hasn't talked to me since. The poem is me trying to work through whether or not it would have been better to shut the hell up, and just be her friend. I've always been her shoulder to cry on. The one she'd call crying at 2am to nurse a broken heart. I feel like I've taken that away from her at a time she needed it most. And I'm sorry doesn't fix that.
Awe tony I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to make you go into all of that, but it definitely clears some things up. Silence is the worst way to to go for people. Especially when you're on the receiving end of it, it hurts more than they know.
I hope everything works out for you, and feel free to shoot me a message if you ever need to talk