I don’t understand
how someone can open you up
knowing you’ve been hurt before
and break you yet again.
I wonder if
they feel any guilt,
or if they feel
nothing at all.
You warn them
of your past
and how people
have taken advantage of you,
yet with this information
they do the same damn thing.
It’s like an invitation
because you’ve had it happen before.
They say they’re not
like other guys,
or that they actually “care”
because in that moment
maybe they actually do.
What happens though
is they aren’t genuine,
and once they get
what they want
they leave you
with nothing but
an empty hole in your chest.
You feel like a fool
for believing in someone,
again.
It opens up the scars
you’ve worked so hard
to sew up.
You feel unwanted
and worthless
because you thought
this time it would be different,
but it is never different.
Without even a reason
or a goodbye
they vanish from your life.
What’s different
this time
is you expected this
to happen again.
You learn
to accept reality
and move on
to the next opportunity
that comes by
because you are lovable
and worthwhile.
You are not
the isolation
you feel.
It doesn’t make sense
why they left,
but you are not a mistake.
You can be loved;
they just weren’t capable
of giving you what you deserve.
