Loving you

Loving you feels like being a kid again,
Back when the only thing you know
Is happiness;
When the world still spins perfectly
And everything is beautiful.
Loving you feels like
I never knew what it was like to cry myself to sleep at night,
When the stars were still something I could wish upon and have hope that every wish made could possibly
come true.
Loving you feels like
I never knew how it felt to have no options left,
Like I never knew how it felt to be so alone that the only thing I trusted was
the razor blade
I let slide across my forearm in the shower for the first time at the age of thirteen.
Loving you feels like
I never knew how it felt to be taken advantage of and abandoned,
Like I was never hurt to the point where I considered ending my own life
Because it seemed better than living at the time.
Loving you feels like
Life was always worth living;
Like there was never a time in my life where I questioned the point of my existence and begged the empty sky for an answer.
Loving you feels like
I'm living in a lot better version of the world.
And I hope it never ends,
My love.
Because loving you feels like
I'm a whole new person.