Failings
by Brenda Aug 14, 2017
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I'm failing at bonding |
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6 years ago
by CJ Maleney
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"Failings" By Brenda 7 points
I found this to be a quite harrowing poem to read that triggered a lot of thought and emotion within myself and yet it pulls you in completely.
Such emotion and frustration so effectively and fluently voiced you can't escape it although some of it makes your heart bleed.
I can only imagine what it's like, not being able to bond with a family member, but from what is described within I can easily see how this would be the case.
The last stanza actually got an audible "NO" from my lips. You are not failing, you're doing everything you can from what I perceive. That some people refuse to help themselves is unfortunately a fact of life.
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6 years ago
Dear Brenda my heart goes out to you please dont beat yourself up. You did the best you could and some more. I have a daughter like that I love her bit I keep my distance for my own sake
She is toXic
Keep praying and let me hug you.-
6 years ago
by Brenda
Dagmar, thank you so much for strength and kind thoughts. I felt your Hugs! I'm figuring out the best way to deal with him and not lose my mind.
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6 years ago
Sending hugs and love. I am not a mother so I cannot possibly begin to understand, but I have respect and appreciate all mothers who do the best they can with what they're given. It hit home when you talked about mental illness as well because that heavily affects one side of my family and it's hard... my mom helps out a lot (as much as she can living in another state). There are some day it seems simple, and other times, I know my mom gets beyond frustrated. I know, just from seeing how hard she tries, that there's a lot of guilt but that in the end, my mom has to focus on her self-care and realize she can't do everything in the world.
You have a pure heart and I'm wishing you a smoother road up ahead...
take care <3-
6 years ago
by Brenda
Thank you so much for your inspiring and kind words. I'm trying to find a way to accept and understand him more without losing myself in the process. He's back in therapy right now and I hope that gives him more tools to deal with the day to day stresses. Hugs back to you and your family and the struggles you all are facing yourselves.
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6 years ago
by Sai
As a daughter, I can't imagine making my mother feel this way. Sometimes we feel like everything we've done (all the sacrifices and such) is still not enough, but that doesn't mean it really is. I'm sure writing this poem down helped ease those self-doubts and disappointments. Loved reading this, all the best.
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6 years ago
by Brenda
Sai, thank you! Some of what he does, he knows better, other stuff, I know it's his illness. There's where my quandary lies, I hate when I feel aggravated and crazy when some of the simplest things arent done, ie; flushing the toilet....to me that's a common courtesy. I'm at an age where I don't have to clean up after kids, unless it's the grandbabies. Then I feel like crud because I am not being more understanding, this is where as a parent I feel like a huge failure, hence the write.
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6 years ago
by Mark
This is a very moving poem. It conveys your emotions and situation really well. 'Pills of my eternal happiness' is a particularly moving line. Well done.
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6 years ago
by Brenda
Mark, thank you! Yeah, my pills of eternal happiness have gotten me through a lot. They help smooth those road bumps.
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