This is ctually a most thought provoking piece. What does it mean to the writer and what does it mean to me? " is it because I have been dead while alive or ready to live when dearh comes knocking?" The longer we live, the more we notice how the population grows and with it the destruction of nature escalates. We notices how much life, society and the different generations change. Its easy to start feeling that we can't and don't want to keep up with the changes, we feel less useful and it's easy to feel like we have lost control of our life that there is no purpose or place anymore. Death is coming gradually more closer and it's scary not knowing when it will hit. You think to take control of at least one thing and make the choice of when you will die but when the time comes that's scary too and you realise that the choice to live is as scary as the choice to die. It causes a dilemma.
The reality is that its more than a choice of whether to live or die its the realisation that fear is the problem. That being scared is whats destroying us and preventing us from trying to do new things trying things we've never done before and not caring what people think. So in shott if you continue to live a life in fear you will wither away in a perpetual state of fear of life and death and it will ruin what life you do have it will paralise you but if you take control and choise to conquer fear then you can become alive again and do all the things you ever wanted to do so that when death does finally come knocking you will no longer fear him. A strong message indeed