Life through an addicts eyes

by jeanette   Sep 24, 2017


The pain and hurt I hold inside everyday I cry for I am ashamed and embarrassed so I start telling lies see you in my mind nobody really cares so it doesn't matter what's on the inside I'll never tell anyone and they won't search for the truth to them it's not important so I turn to the booze numbness I feel for only a short time for now it seems to override the pain and tears but it always subsides so I look for something more potent something better and with no fear I put that needle of speed right in my vein then instantly I don't feel a thing it lasted quite a while I just forgot everything and thought to myself finally this is my thing thinking only of myself and how it felt to be free from the pain inside my heart and mind from the sadness of my world this through an addicts eyes.

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  • 6 years ago

    by Michael

    One is called my candle of addiction'
    and 'recovery'
    Yes by all means have a read jeanette :)

  • 6 years ago

    by Michael

    Jeanette

    That's exactly it, expressing can feel like letting go at times :)
    and yes I would hope like you say poetry may help some one or at least give a feeling, that its okay to write about whatever. I hope my writing will :)

    Be safe

    Michael :)

    • 6 years ago

      by jeanette

      What r one of ur poems n u have them submitted here? I would like to read please. N thank u again.

  • 6 years ago

    by Michael

    Hi Jeanette :)

    This piece of writing resonates on a deep level with myself. Thank you for sharing a raw poem of reality. unless one has experienced addiction, it is a very difficult subject to understand. We can feel that nothing can equal the highs and escapism, but there is but we have to dig deep and search ourselves. The truth is that it comes down to us, and it can be achieved through support and exploring.
    Keep safe and well

    Michael :)

    • 6 years ago

      by jeanette

      Thank u. I'm not the best but it's the only way I can truly express how n what I'm really feeling. I feel like nobody understands me, they haven't been where I have gone through the things I have their not me, but at the same time maybe my writings will help or save someone else... But again thank u...