I believe this is saying that you thought if a certaon person gave you wings you would climb out or in this case fly out of the darkness. But then you realized that in reality another person cannot help you. Only you can. And after these years nothing has helped you fly, not love, not writing.
I do love the structure of the poem it self because each stanza brings about its own story, almost like past, present and future. And it seems that you are somewhat stuck in the past and maybe it is affecting your present. Maybe I'm reading too much into it.
I especially loved the couplet. Those two lines hit me hard because they hold the most sadness, you feel defeated almost, like giving up.
I could be entirely mis reading it but i felt this piece had a sad undertone as if you had believed you could do anything with this person's support but it's as if there is disillusionment as if the support hasn't been there or if it was it wasn't enough to encourage you to achieve your dream.
It is certainly thought provoking in a good way. A most enjoyable read. Milly x
Beautiful Ben! It felt to me like the one person you tried to impress with your words wasn't as taken with them as everyone else? Like you need approval from someone that won't give it.
Sad, thought provoking and brilliantly crafted as ever x