The Beginning Or The End?

Take me back to my youth, I am just just 19 years old.
The words drop so heavily. "I'm with child" is what I'm told.
I dissolved my path, rethought everything including my career plan
Still adolescent in some ways, yet I chose to be a man.

I worked hard to build us some kind of life
That factory from 6am until 6 o'clock at night.
Then home a little while to eat before another job
Pouring pints for idiots at night.

Not once did I complain
Because I was young and fit back then
And things kinda came together
With the help of family and friends.

They brought you into our world
When from your own you were outcast
All their trust and gestures
On you they would soon be lost.

But I put the end before the middle
Before the birth of our shared genes
Waiting for her to breath her first
My fingers crushed, ears filled with screams.

My only blood born daughter came to be
And they placed her in my arms
Wrapped up within her blanket
I quickly succumbed to her charms

It's time to go the midwife said
Mum and baby need to rest
That's when you got your first hold
As you clutched her to your breast.

I walked out of that hospital
That's now a university
4 miles from there to home
I covered it with ease and speed

Not many people know this
Not a single person seen
I wept so much when I got home
But not through misery.

Things started getting better
For I found a cracking well paid job
It involved working shifts
But I thought it worth the cost

And that is when things started to go wrong
For you simply couldn't to be alone
When I was working night shift
You snuck a man into our home

I found out about it eventually
And the split was not a pleasant one
Not caring for our little one properly
She stayed with me and my mum

They gave you time to sort yourself
Then our baby came back to you
And that's when things get really bitter
You filled her head with vile untruths

All those years thinking the worst of me
And living in your horrid home
Believing the lies you told of me
Till she had a baby of her own

You see I tracked her down quite easily
And she was very shocked it's true
And I must admit I smiled a bit
For she looks like me, not you

Her and I meet from time to time
And it's not quite how it should be
For the poison seeds you sowed
Can't be forgotten so easily

Did you know before all this happened
I had a pure, dedicated and loving heart
People wonder how I got so dark twisted

!Well I guess this was the start!