It really does get better

A little more than year ago I was struggling to figure out whether
or not my life was even worth living;
Trying to decide whether things would ever get better for me
instead of being in the constant tragic repeat of things that they’d been in
for my entire life.
The other night I was standing in front of you while you sat on the stool near the table;
Watching as your face was lit with laughter as our friends were joking around beside us.
I’d cradled your face in my hands for a few seconds and felt a bright smile light up my own face;
And as I fell into your arms in my own laughter over something you said to me I realized this is it;
This is my life now.
This is what I have to live for-
These amazing nights by your side as we tease and joke with each other,
As I watch your smile match your eyes and-
Even how the smallest of kisses manage to touch me in ways I never knew were possible,
They all make me realize that I am so glad that I never gave up;
And all I can remember thinking in that moment is-
it really does get better.