Totally relate to this. Nice one

Yan, a warm welcome to the site.

A sad first post from you but as you yourself state, there is 'hope tomorrow'. Cling to that if you can.

Take care,

Ben

Welcome to P&Q Yan :-)
A thought provoking first piece from you but the words 'be careful what you wish for' spring to mind ... the grass is rarely greener ... maybe just better kept sometimes? :-) x
=^.^=