I do not know how I am JUST NOW seeing this piece. But, It is so beautiful, raw and true! Every stanza makes me want to reread all of my journals I have kept over the years to see the pain, anger and hatred that only they knew about. I absolutely LOVE this Tony.
Thank you Danii, I have a lot of them myself. I go through them every now and then, and it never fails to amaze me how much I've changed. The core of who I am, but my views, outlook on life, even my opinion of myself... have all undergone a dramatic paradigm shift.
Judging Comment - Letter from my notebook by Tony points 10 - This piece oozes with truth, power and unfortunately relatability as many of us have probably been at a low point therefore written in a diary ‘notebook’ to express the emotions we're going through. I have fortunately been saved by my very own diary through times of hardships and when I felt like no one else understood I had this ‘little book of emotions’ where I could let my pen do the talking because I found it difficult to talk being told to shut up so often and I knew that this inanimate object wouldn't judge me but instead would listen as it certainly had no choice to listen to my ramblings.
I found this to be such a powerful articulation of poetry. The notebook writes a letter to the poet saying – “I’m here, and I’m all of these things for you”. The physical manifestation of the words poets write are given an image (cracked spines and grinding teeth) as well as a spectrum of emotions (rage, anger, pain, tears, self-control). The fact that our poetry is often a direct reflection of how we’re feeling is also addressed (‘the tattered mirror to your soul’). The releasing nature of poetry means we do indeed use it to express guilt and love, and to help us grieve and find peace - all boxes ticked here. The final stanza expresses how our words can both wound and protect, but mostly poetry can be “the voice to voice the things you can’t”. Reading this I felt understood and soothed, I’m not sure how else to describe it, but Tony, this is magnificent! :-) x