The first time you ever showed me how you felt about me we were standing outside of my old job in the cold;
Waiting for your Uber to pick you up and take you home.
It got there so fast that night;
I remember wishing that you could stay for just a little while longer because I wasn’t ready for you to go yet
but as it pulled up I swallowed the heartache and looked up at you as billy was climbing into the car.
You’d grabbed my face with both
of your hands and kissed my forehead as if you were terrified of losing me but yet thinking about how lucky you were to have me in your life all at the same time;
And it was so passionate it
left me standing there dizzy as I watched you get into the car as well and drive
off until you were out of sight.
You did it so fast it took me a second to wrap my head around it;
And I spent hours that night replaying it in my head over and over again,
Not wanting to forget how it felt for a second.
Almost a year and a half later and I still haven’t forgotten because honestly;
You are the reason I stopped falling asleep crying and started falling asleep with a smile on my face.