Why do I feel like I am still being punished for something I had no control over? Why do I feel like I am already dead. Some people do not believe me when I say that I already seen the way I die well the truth is I have. It was back when Paul was assaulting me the third time. (to be exact)
He was choking me after he haunted me down after I told what he did. I went out of state for vacation and came home then boom he was in my bedroom at my father's house. He waited for me to come home and then he choked me until I almost passed out then he pulled a knife from his pocket and slit my throat. He told my dad he was gonna take me for a ride. So he did but I was already dead by the end. He threw me out onto the railroad tracks where no one was gonna ever be able to find me. I feel like this was my fault I wanted to die so bad I just let him kill me. It was so painful And yes THIS is coming from a dead girl. I know right weird? Scare you yet? It isn't that I was that unhappy in life I was just tired of fighting. He escaped from prison and went to my dads house to kill me. I keep having this dream replay in the back of my mind. I haven't slept in about a week now but hey who cares? No one so why should I? Anyways back to the way my life ends. Paul goes back to my dads house where he was met by the cops to take him back to prison. My father asked about me. Where I was at, and what had happened to me. Why wasn't I in the car? Well because he took me and threw me off a bridge on 127 right before the Page Ave. Exit. I was laying there bellding all over the tracks half dead. No one found me until 3 years later. But they could not identify me because I was already deteriorating. There had been about 30 to 100 trains go over my body and they had no idea. Paul got back out and continued to be free and no one ever figured out who I was. Oh and for my kids they went to foster care because their dad committed suicide right off the same bridge paul pushed me off of.
