Tired pt.1

I am tired
Tired of never understanding the way I feel,
How I hurt people without saying a word.
Tired of being the mistake in this world,
Tired of being treated differently,
Tired of being the outcast.
Tired of waiting till everyone is asleep so I can cry myself to sleep, without being judged
Tired of being insecure,
Tired of wanting to be dead.
Tired of wishing to be happy and somewhat okay again.
Tired of having a panic attack for no reason, besides my mind playing tricks on me
I am so tired of giving in to the little things that hurt me in the long run
Tired of no one caring how I really feel about everything going on in my life.
I am just tired so I will say,
So I do not have to explain everything said above.
That is all I am just tired...