You have expressed the struggle so well Love, in several ways - in the words you have used and the order in which you place them so carefully, in construction of the sentences in the stanzas and also in how you have arranged the verses visually.
You have evoked the experience of having so much pain and struggle unrecognised because of keeping it so well disguised very effectively I think.
Keep writing and looking for the light and you will find your way through.
One who knows,
Megan

I feel your pain in this very expressive poem and I to struggle. Thank you for this amazing write.

So much pain and emotions in this powerful write! You explained it as if you were a Teacher or a Professor trying to get across her points to her students. Well written!

--- MKKK