Hell On Earth

It hurts like hell to know that you are not around
to calm these screaming fears
that are burning me alive.

All this anger,
all this fear,
I can feel the heat of it
just running through my veins.
Temptations of release
running through my mind
as I reach for the trusted blade.

If I told you all I wanted
was for you to come back
and love me once again,
I would die inside of the shame
of ever letting someone
get so close to me again.

Abandonment seems to follow me
like a shadow in the clouds,
and your departure is more than I can take.

If this is hell on Earth, then heaven can take me now.

Saffie
25

9/8/16