Omg.... okay.. i cant comment here.. but dammmmm s..

Just.. hugs

You really are turning out some great work at the moment, Stephen. Well done.

I do hope you are keeping well. All the best as ever,

Ben

Oh my goodness!! First of all, I was already tearing up just from reading the title. Just...wow. My heart strings are tugged (more like yanked) and this has definitely struck a few chords in me. Not only is this written well, but I can really feel the anguish of the pulling and tugging between love and friendship, secrets and desire. Dealing with emotions on a good day can be difficult...but dealing with emotions of love, especially in a situation like this, is a whole other story. My heart aches for you. That's a heavy secret to keep, and the weight of it can be crushing. I'm not sure what more to say except I hope so much that one day you won't feel ashamed of who you are, and will love yourself completely and without fear <3 The heart is a resilient little thing. So much love to you, hon.