never to be found

i can feel it happening again,
the world turning sideways.
my minds eye blurring slowly,
my thoughts lost in the haze.

trapped in my own mind,
tormented by demons i cant escape.
every doubt magnified ten fold,
any help may be too late.

this time its different,
i can feel parts of me falling away.
i'm losing pieces of myself,
only a ghost to take the blame.

i consciously see myself changing,
but i have no control over it now.
i lost myself long ago,
now, never to be found.