Words can't convey how vile people are... how heartbreaking it is that people can blame you or not believe you or somehow undermine what you went through and continue to go through. Keep fighting, you're so worth it. My heart and thoughts are with you. I hope there is continuous justice. Thank you for sharing your vulnerability, courage and voice here.

It is horrible what happened to you Olivia. And as a man I am ashamed of being a part in this gender, I am also amazed how naif you are that stay with an adult man alone in his house, and go to his bedroom and lay down in his bed at night time , fall sleep and spect nothing to happen. I as a man in your age wouldn't dare to do so. and I was not raped like you all my life. and also knew boxing.
You also have to take control of your life. Do not allow yourself to be cornered like this ever again. do not allow and do not trust!!
Ass I see you are very vulnerable to the man love. Perhaps did not get enough love from your father, there are affordable psychoanalytic therapy available in US. In Canada you can find covered ones, If you can afford go see one, With the new technics, they do marvels nowadays,

I’m sorry. It takes courage to open up like this. You’re clearly a strong person, and sharing the deepest and darkest parts of us can sometimes bring us light. I hope this is true for you