Daniel, I for one am applauding your honesty. I think the truth is, poets in general are a sensitive bunch who perhaps don't feel as good about themselves as they should. This, in turn, sparks emotion that needs venting. And if - if - you have a way with words and believe you have the ability to 'paint' those vents skillfully, well then, you not only have discovered a process that is cathartic, but one that you are actually rather good at - so good, people actually applaud, perhaps. Then the healing is twofold and you can feel good about yourself at last.
I think people write for different reasons but all that is created comes from within.. be it writing, painting or any other creative activity. (Its almost like giving birth because its part of the creator) so when people like or appreciate your creation it is natural to feel proud and elevated. Sometimes its not so much a need for approval but a self drive to strive for improvement or perfection in your craft with the level of applause being the yardstick. A thought provoking and honest piece. Milly x
Coming across paradoxes, like this, need some genuineness and clarity of mined. One at least must have gotten a glimpse to beyond his/her vanity. Most never notice Paradoxes and those who do, never could solve or free themselves from them, but only could learn to feel at ease in their presence (as don John said). This also could be called comprehending them.
According to the books, very few can accomplish this.
Daniel, this is not only a well written/composed piece - this is heartfelt and highlights not just your need for approval, but this 'need' as a human condition. I think most creative people create to help express themselves, but more than this, approval that their work is good, if not excellent. Of course, most of us on here are never happy, always wanting more from ourselves. There comes a time when that inner boy on stage has to know he has done well. Daniel, you've done exceptionally well.
Oh wow! I often wonder about the 'indulgence" of writing. I realise though for me it is cheaper than therapy. A way to connect with all that upsets me in the world. It's hard to be sensitive in a world that isn't. Great piece. Provocative and beautifully penned.