I wish, I hope that this was all a dream but when I close my eyes I only see you. As I sit here wide awake for no other reason than I am just scared to close my eyes.
From the pain, memories (good & bad) It makes me wish that I could have prayed for JUST five more minutes... Those three hundred seconds could have changed my life for ever. Grandpa, If you're reading this please know I love you... If you are around me just stop and listen.... Grandpa, I Olivia Addie wish nothing more but to have you here by my side. Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt. I will not cause my heart so much pain... From a young age I remember you walking without a cane and without a walker. You used to go on walks with me. You always were by my side when you could be, Thank you for your service in the korean war. They always said the strongest were the one's to not cry, but hell at that point no one would be strong. To be honest with you grandpa, I always remember you sitting next to me on the couch saying cowgirl's don't cry... Well here I am by your coffin crying. Ridding the horse that used to be yours, until you gave him to me. Emerson... You named him after your first son died... Cowboy take me away, fly this girl as high as you can... set me free lord I pray... I need to see your face grandpa. It hasn't even been 12 hours yet and I already miss you so much. It feels like you have been gone a life time... Cowgirl's do in fact cry... They cry more than anyone... Family is the only thing we got in our town. In the village we made for each other. Same dinner table, now with yet another empty chair. For I don't blame you, you were called home and you went. You were in your mid 80's. But the pain isn't any less painful. I love you grandpa, And remember to watch over me. I will be looking for you...
