This Poem is Messed Up

by ibelievedhim   Feb 5, 2019


I loved you so much I paid all your bills and rent
I loved you so much I never asked where you went

I loved you so much that I gave you all of my money
I loved you so much I pretended everything was sunny

I loved you so much I forgave you for it all
I loved you so much I ignored what I saw

I loved you so much I let you make me look dumb
I loved you so much and look what I have become

I loved you so much and I stayed for so long
I loved you so much and I know this is wrong,

I still love you today in ways you'll never know
I still love you today in ways I wish I could show:

I love you when you're short or tall
I love you when you're big or small

I love you when you're fat and hairy
I love you when you're thin and scary

Every part of you is perfect and baby I swear
I love waking up and knowing you're there

I still love you when you get sad
I even love you when you're mad

I love you when you tell me a lie
I love you when you make me cry

I love you when you choose to cheat
I love you when you're not discreet

I love you when you're using drugs
I love you when you refuse my hugs

I love you when you bruise my skin
I love you when my patience is thin

I love you when you end up behind bars
I love you when you hit me and I see stars

I love you forever no matter what you do
I love you always and I promise it's true

Lovebugs for life, and even in death
I love you even after my final breath

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  • 2 months ago

    by BOB GALLO

    Nice effort dear friend. You started with so many heartfelt questions, that almost every one of us once had and were burned with. But in this poetical endeavour you answered all your questions. You revealed the causes of all your sufferings:
    "I loved you so much that I gave you all of my money
    I loved you so much I pretended everything was sunny"
    “paid all your bills and rent”
    “never asked where you went”
    “you make me look dumb”
    is you. The brutalities all belong to you, not him. You allow him ( even empower him) to ravish you, take advantage of you and still give him your unconditional love:
    “I love you when you choose to cheat
    I love you when you're not discreet”
    How would you expect him to better himself, even if he love you? You're even authorizing him to go ahead and cheat. If you ask an average person to cheat, be sure that she/ he would soon or later comply. Life is complicated and heard even when you try to control yourself never mind when you have permission.

    This self-harming love is not healthy. Loving a brute is not love. You are the problem, when you fall in love with a brute. Like a person who like a greasy hamburger.
    You have a great ability to love and your love is amazingly tolerant. A healthy love needs those admirable abilities; life is not a Fairy tale you know!! But your ability to love, the way that it is now: regardless, if he is like beetle or vermin inside but better look like butterfly or hummingbird outside, must turn inside out.
    Then all these extraordinary tools that you have for love would come handy.

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