Gods Lost Angel

by Dark Savior   Oct 4, 2004


Now that i have laid her down to sleep
in the cold Depths at ol' hollows creep
she is forever gone physically from this world
yet her memory remains for me to uncurl

i watched all those around me shed their tears
i watched as all those around me downed those beers
i watched them think of all the good and bad times
i watched as i allowed my family to commit those crimes

i wish there was something that i could have done
but instead i turned a deaf ear and decided to run
i didn't deserve to be there and be the rest
an angel sent here by God to put me to the test.

i failed and didn't even come close to a passing mark
i was swallowed within the Depths of my cold black heart
i watched her die each day i seen her slowly die
each day i wake up and ask myself why ..why why

She was there for me when i needed her the most
she was there for me when i needed a house
she was there for me when i needed a friend
she was there for me right until the very end.

i wish i could say that i was there for her in someway
perhaps if we meet again i will be able to repay her someday
i wish i could have told her how i felt, leaving the hospital room
i would have turned around and let her known before the day of gloom

She will never get to see me marry the girl of my dreams
she will never get to see me down on one of my knee's
she will never get to see me dressed up in a suit
she will never get to see me become a recruit

she won't get to see all the major events in my life
but i am sure that she is in heaven know with strife
i know that there is not a person who can ease this pain
the type you never cry about but always seems to make you complain

what i committed no jury would convict me for
uncaring is not a crime but he hurts ever so more
i wish that i could stop the pain i feel but never will
she lay motionless in the ground like a photo still.

If kindness was cash then you'd be a millionaire
you had that gift and always seemed to share
there is not a person who seemed to notice
i am just letting her know she was too devoted

I wish i could tell her how much she meant
now everyone fights over silly things like a tent
no one cares about her memory or her wishes
they are greedy and fight over antique dish's

each day i wake up and know that there is another fight
each day i know that someone going to yell and scream
each day i keep my lip much too tight
each day i hope that everything is not as it should seem

so in the heart is where i keep my dearest of friend
the more i try the more i keep up this game of pretend
i wish there was something i could trade for you to be here
cause without you i find it hard to look into a shattered mirror.

* In loving memory of my grandmother whom i wrote this poem about just after she died*

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  • 14 years ago

    by silvertung69

    I have tried to write one about my mom but have not been able to. nice job

  • 15 years ago

    by Inside the Liar

    Okay, before I say anything else, I found a grammar mistake. Third stanza up from the ending of the poem, fourth line. It says "fight over antique dish's" where it should say "fight over antique dishes."
    That being said, I thought it was a pretty good poem. There were parts of it where I felt that the rhymes were forced, and it just didn't feel right. I liked the flow of it. Other than a few minor things, I thought it was wonderful. 4/5

  • 15 years ago

    by jennifer chalifour

    Hey i lost my grammy two years ago and this made me cry so much because i miss her so and now it fells like the family is always fighting and all i want to do is bring her back to us love lots jenni xxoo

  • 15 years ago

    by Alexandra Jade Brewer

    That was so well done. There was so much deep emotion. Keep up the amazing work.

  • 17 years ago

    by MadelineJayde

    That is such an amazing p0em and u sho0d be very pr0ud 0f urself! its s0 deep and meaningful and im sure ur grandm0ther is in heaven watching 0ver u and very pr0ud 0f u. such a beautiful p0em, y0u're a talented writer, keep up the great w0rk!
    i kn0w what its like l0sing sum1 u l0ve as i l0st 6 0f my friends in february this year (i hav 3 p0ems written ab0ut it, take a lo0k if u like.. Forever y0ung ;x is my fav0urite..)
    i h0pe ur d0ing 0kay, ill be here if u ever need sum1 2 talk 2 ;]
    l0ts 0f l0ve, maddy x0ox0ox