Disapointment for being Gay!

by Ashley Washer   Dec 7, 2004


I failed you,
disappointed you,
but that was never,
what I wanted to do.

The lifestyle that I choose,
you don't agree with,
you just think,
it's some kind of myth.

I'm so sorry,
but this is just who I am,
I've tried to change,
but when I did,
my life became dim.

I was to scared of what you would think,
that I didn't worry about others,
which was a mistake,
because what they did to me,
it felt like it was unreal, even fake.

I came home bloody and bruised,
I told you I just got in a fight,
you asked how it started,
all I could do was lie about that night.

I couldn't tell you the truth,
that it was a gay bashing,
you would of been even more disappointed,
and I would of started crying.

From that moment on,
I kept lying more, and more,
you believed every one of those lies,
and my heart was tore.

I keep failing you,
and I don't know how to stop,
I feel like I'm the biggest disappointment,
and that will never stop,
not for one single moment.

I disappointed you in so many ways,
my grades, friends, cloths,
but I think the biggest way,
I have ever disappointed you,
is in my choice to be gay.

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  • 16 years ago

    by Robert Anthony

    WOW! I can relate to this poems, I loved it....

  • 17 years ago

    by Nikiesha Pruitt

    I like this poem. i know how you feel because i to try to hide the fact that i am a lesbian. i'm so scared of what people will think and how my family will react that i just can't let them know the truth. last year when i had a girlfriend they knew she was my girlfriend and they freaked out. my parents are really religous and it bugs them a lot. without andrea here to help me stay strong i just can't let them know that i choose to be gay. i like being gay even it dosn't bother me one little bit. i just wish i had the strength to tell them the truth and stop trying to hide behind guys that say they love me because i'm not only hurting them but myself also...

  • 19 years ago

    by Ashlee Nicole

    Awesome poem, I'm recently in turmoil in this area, I think I may be bi or lesbian, but I just don't know...I think Bi if anything, I just I find myself attracted to girls, not so much the Girl itself but the warmth, compassion and tenderness of a girl, that well most guys dont have.lol.

  • 19 years ago

    by Angel Sanctuary ©

    Awwwwwww..... This was so sad... I hope it isn't true about the bashing thing... If it is... I hope those people die soon.... And you are noo disapointment... Keep your head up.. Everything will be okay... For this poem... It was great... I loved it... Welll writen... Keep it up and Take Care
    Angel

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