I Love You, Mom

I know I’ve said a lot of stuff
And there were times when
I told you I’d had enough
You just loved me even more then

And I find it so hard to say
How much you really mean to me
How scared I am that you’ll go away
Cos I don’t ever want that to be

I know I put you through hell
I scream and call you things I don’t mean
But there’s so many things I wish I could tell
I tried to be good, and I wish I could have been

I don’t know if you’ll see this
But I hope one day you do
You are the one I would really miss
I couldn’t stand to lose you

I remember as a child, crying
So hard my chest and throat were sore
So, so scared to one day see you dying
If you did, I would not be able live any more

So many things in the past
Cropped up to build a wall
But I don’t want the barrier to last
I really want to see it fall

Cos Mom, I love you so much
And I am so sorry if I ever hurt you
I’m sorry I said all that nasty stuff
I will never desert you

And I hope, Mom that you also
Will never, ever abandon me
My greatest fear is if you were to go
I’m trying real hard here to make you see …

I could not live without you.

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