Guilty Dreams

Its upon my guilty conscience
That at night I weep
I see your fallen angel face
And I just can’t fall asleep

I have these horrid nightmares
Even when I’m wide awake
I remember those words you said to me
And I feel my heart break

My body shakes uncontrollably
The knife safely hidden beneath my bed
I want so badly to join you my friend
Just so you know you’re not alone when you’re dead

I can’t imagine that model face of yours
Anything but curled in a smile
I couldn’t believe you felt this much
Or you were hurting this bad all the while

It’s my entire fault you’re the way you are
Unconscious in a hospital bed
I knew what I had done to you
My consequence, I bled

The blood flow may have stopped
Tears stopped spilling on the floor
But that is not what I deserve
While you’re still hurting more

I can’t stop thinking of you
How torturous it may have been
To fight that last battle
Knowing you couldn’t win.

But babe, I’m here for you.
I always was and will be.
Everyone I know is still mourning for you
On this I guarantee.

I still see images of you
It hurts me to see this so
I watch you clinging to your bloody wrists
Trying to let go.

But I’m there too, can’t you see?
I’m that tear drop on your cheek
I’m there to express your pain
And help you when you’re weak.

I still linger on your face.
As I wish you dream of me too
Because you should know that every night
I’m as sure as hell dreaming of you.

-I think we all know who this is about. If not, you should be ashamed of yourselves.-