The Outsider

Secretly plotting my own death,
but quietly so no one can tell,
especially with whats been happening lately,
another would just be pure hell.

Laughed at or insulted,
by my so called friends,
I've finally had all I can take,
so this is where it ends.

No matter what they say,
I know they do not care,
it's almost like they only want me around,
for the sake of me just being there.

So I will do it quickly,
without even saying goodbye,
because I think doing that,
would only make them cry.

It would not be tears for me,
simply the way I chose to leave,
and how it suddenly happened,
and how they never really believed.

Help the others if you can,
but please just leave me alone,
saving is definitely not what I want,
I want the flesh to rot off my bones.

Quit acting like I'm stupid,
just another reason to go,
and I can finally close the curtain,
on this dreadful tale of woe.

When I'm up in heaven,
I'll be happy no longer in pain,
my mind will finally be set free,
and I finally wont feel so insane.

I will be blessed by the angels,
so don't worry and don't be sad,
because when I am gone,
things will no longer be so bad.

I will be up there able to help you,
because I never could help down here,
to many things controlling me,
but they will finally disappear.

So take this how you want,
ignore it if you feel the need,
but what ever you do don't forget I'm sorry,
for my upcoming deed.

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