Mr. Death Visited Me Again

*Close to death last night*

If anyone noticed, my absence of writing
I was unable to write last night
Mr. Death came to visit me once again
And I had to put up a fight

A mesely little cut to escape my pain
Took shape upon my wrists
To save myself from all my struggles
And the pain from my father's fists

I performed my session in the bathroom
I was lying on the floor unaware
That I was losing so much blood once again
And forever I may have stayed there

Out of the blue I felt so weak
When I stood up I couldn't stand straight
That's my punishment for cutting myself
For changing my anger to self-hate

Who ever thought that the stupid cut
May have hit a vein
I just thought it was my own little way
Of escaping all of life's pain

And now when I come to think
That last night may have been my last
I realize my life's worth
And that I have to move on from my past

But no matter how hard I try
I know I will never forget
For the scars on my body always remind me
And now I'm just left in regret

A brand new cut, a brand new worry
For the cut I must try to hide
And if my wrist just happens to be touched
The pain will exceed the pain inside

This scar is yet so visible
But I must try to hide it some way
If anyone catches a glimpse of it
My friends will just shun me away

Though I must confess my true thoughts
Of wishing that I didn't realize
That I was losing so much blood
But that thought just brings tears to my eyes

Now it hurts me even more
When I think that Death visited me thrice
I'm sick of this game that I always play
I'm finally giving up the dice

I no longer want to cry these tears
I no longer want to play games with my life
Now I have no choice but to
Also give up my knife

Mr. Death has visited me too many times
So it's about time he goes away
It's time to start a new beginning
And tomorrow's a new day

I am really thankful that I am still here today
Mr. Death just wanted to see me bleed
Well... I have news for him
Sorry Mr. Death, I won't satisfy your greed

*I cut myself too deep last night... I lost a lot of blood. It was the third time I almost died... and hopefully the last*

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