How Much It Hurts

*I know this is long, and I wrote it to Amy. but it would mean ALOT to me if you read it and commented! I\'m too scared to give it to her...*

Amy
You were there for me
One harmful, frightful night
Took away my pain
You showed me the light

I know telling you
Will only make this worse
But I need you to know
How much it hurts

You cut me off
What seemed too fast
I was aware it wasn’t
Going to last

But without a second through
I put my life into you hands
You told me you’d be there
You said you’d understand

I know this wont last
Eventually I’ll be okay
But without someone by my side
I feel like running away

Amy, you once said
From the bottom of your heart
You would always be there
But instead you tore me apart

I know its not your fault
You don’t know you hurt me
I don’t blame you at all
But for me, you need to see

Every time I sit and cry
My mind floats back to you
Wanting to just be held
And know you’ll help me through

I know I can do this,
Without you by my side
But it hurts and its hard
When I always want to hide

I want to hide from everyone
So nobody will even know
Except for you Amy
The only one I could ever show

The blade sits there, calling
Wanting me to give in
Not knowing what to do
But feeling the pain within

Somehow I always remembered
When you told me you were proud
Of the way I chose to handle things
So I knew I wasn’t allowed

I’m sorry I did this to you
But Thank you for everything just the same
We’re all just human
Playing the same damn game