EmPtY/ThAnKs FoR tHe DeAtHwIsH

(people have been emailing me and asking if joshua and I have broken up... the verdict... i’m not sure. We’ve been together forever it seems, but i think things are changing. Long distance is hard to make work (even if it’s only a 30 minute drive). I love him to death, and i cant see myself without him, but would we be better off?)

I reach, but I feel only air.
The rope tightens, and,
I’m hung up in the snare.
Black dress,
Teases the tear-stained ground.
While the crown falls silent,
And makes not a sound.

Why is it taking so long to die?

I’m hanging here,
Unjustly executed,
While my case is still disputed.
I’m not dying of asphyxiation,
I’m not choking on silent screams.
My heart has been shattered,
But you wouldn’t know what that means.
You don’t know the pain,
As some of us do.
You cry for your money,
While my pale skin turns to blue.
It’s like,
An accidental suicide.
I’m dying tonight,
‘Cause i’m tired of holding on.
The love I felt for you,
Is gone.
I was afraid to pull the trigger,
Or swallow the cyanide,
So you did it for me...

No longer broken and bleeding inside.