Suffer/Sober

Full of suffering because you make me bleed
Planting inside your hateful seed
Wrecking me endlessly over and over
Can?t believe you were even sober

Shuddering aloud because of the cold
Sobbing will get me nowhere, I was told
Not able to surrender, yet not able to fight
Because out of my innocence, he took a bite

You assumed it was okay because you thought it was fun
But didn't you see the pain in my face, waiting for you to be done?
Yes, you did, but did you give it a second thought?
I suppose not, since you didn't stop

But later on, when i had to walk myself home
I felt your breath on my neck, even though i was alone
Walking through the night, the tears leaked from my eyes
And deep inside, i slowly died

It was then in the driveway I pulled out a razor
My therapist, my beloved, my beautiful shaper
I slipped it hard into my wrist
Felt every knot in me twist

I was suffering because you made me bleed
So I made myself give in and I fell to my knees
Made myself weak just so the hurt would be over
Fall to sleep on the ground......

Can?t believe you were sober.

*Um...hope you liked it! No, I?ve never been raped, but for some reason, i just started thinking about it and.....this is what came out. Thanks so much for reading! Peace and Lots of Love to All of Y?all...*

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