Don't let me die

Don’t let me die,
Drowning in this pool of blood,
Looking down,
I can not believe it’s mine,
I did not choose this way,

I’m only young,
Mom please do not let them,
Do not let them turn off the machines,
I am still alive,
Please don’t lose hope,

I did not mean to lie to you,
Honestly I was going to tell you,
I mean it just slipped my mind,
But now my mind has slipped me,
I think the pain has muddled me,

I am forgetting the present,
Looking to the past,
And remembering the future,
Mom what is wrong with me?
Please let them help me, the doctors CAN help.

Please sign the permission form,
Let them do their magic,
I know I said I wanted to die,
But mom,
I changed my mind.

I was angry,
We all say thing when we are angry,
I am sorry I walked out the house,
I am sorry I was blinded by rage,
I am sorry I didn’t see the lorry.

I know you are crying,
I can feel the tears on my blood spattered face,
I know you believe I’m going to die,
But I am praying I won’t,
Please mom, listen to my silent prayers.

I’m really getting scared now,
The pain is getting deeper,
I’m worried, maybe I will die,
Oh mom, why me?
I’m so scared.

I know I have cut,
I know I have cried,
I know you have been worried,
But seriously,
This was never meant to happen.

Why me?
Now as I slide in and out of darkness,
I am remembering all those happy times,
The laughter in the play park,
The cheers at a birthday party,

Mom do you remember those times,
When we all chuckled,
When the dog ate the mince pies,
When my sister played in the concert,
Do you remember?

Oh why?
Why could I not remember them before?
Why now, when it is too late?
I wish I could turn back the clock,
Please don’t let me die.